It doesn’t interest me if there is one God or many gods. I want to know if you belong or feel abandoned. If you know despair or can see it in others. I want to know if you are prepared to live in the world …
Tag Archive: emptiness
Nov
07
2008
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Oct
24
2008
Advent Longing
It feels like I’m in Advent, waiting. (I never seem to be in sync with the current liturgical season.) I feel like an old dog trying to find a comfortable spot to lay down—he circles and circles around the same spot, but no angle quite looks comfortable enough to settle on. I am uncomfortable in …
Permanent link to this article: http://cowpi.com/journal/2008/10/advent-longing
Mar
22
2008
The Longest Day
My heart is a little giddy with excitement and anticipation for tonight’s Easter Vigil Mass. It is my favorite Mass of the whole year, with Christmas Midnight Mass a close second. It has been a long and dark Lent for me, and the hope Easter brings is fresh and renewed. It is easy to live …
Permanent link to this article: http://cowpi.com/journal/2008/03/the-longest-day
Sep
28
2007
Among All That Debris
Some quotations from Crisis of Faith, Crisis of Love by Thomas Keating that have been lanterns of hope along the path through the valley… The absence of the felt presence of The Lord is his normal means of increasing our faith and of getting us to the point of believing in the power of his …
Permanent link to this article: http://cowpi.com/journal/2007/09/among-all-that-debris
Sep
05
2007
You in My Desolation
I feel like a fraud, a fake. I want to pray, but I don’t want to. My words are so shallow, empty, nothing. I am shallow, empty, nothing. My thoughts are divergent, flittering between this and that, between nothing and no-thing. My emotions are worn out— the same spinning …
Permanent link to this article: http://cowpi.com/journal/2007/09/you-in-my-desolation