What if a demon…

What if a demon were to creep after you one night, in your loneliest loneliness, and say, ‘This life which you live must be lived by you once again and innumerable times more; and every pain and joy and thought and sigh must come again to you, all in the same sequence. The eternal hourglass will again and again be turned and you with it, dust of the dust!’ Would you throw yourself down and gnash your teeth and curse that demon? Or would you answer, ‘Never have I heard anything more divine’?

— Friedrich Nietzsche (via Zealous)

I imagine your answer to this question depends heavily on your current mood, but it makes you wonder about the kind of life you are living. Is the joy in your life worth the sorrow? If not, what are you going to do to make it so? Dare you to move…

When I Look to the Sky

Cause when I look to the sky
    something tells me you’re here with me
And you make everything alright
And when I feel like I’m lost
    something tells me you’re here with me
And I can always find my way when you are here

— Train

What Would I Say?

Inspired by Karen and Steve: What would I blog about if I could blog today? I’d write about how this pair of birds, little swallows or swifts, not sure which, built a nest over my front door; how they had a family of five in June; and how they grew up and flew away to explore the world on their own. Then how, the same pair started another family in the same nest in July, but this time, one of the nestlings fell out of the nest one evening. I scooped it up in a paper plate, climbed a ladder and gently placed it back in with the others. It seemed happy to be home. The next evening, the little runt was again sitting helpless on the floor of the front porch. This time, I left the poor thing there thinking this was nature’s way, God’s way, to handle this undersized, underdeveloped, little bird.

Maybe I could write about my reaction to Doc’s post on why not to give charity to professional beggars and how it reminded me of this story about a man trying to save a scorpion. And how I feel guilty if I pass a beggar by averting my eyes and ignoring him, or how I sometimes still feel guilty even if I give him some money.

Maybe I could write about how the convenient excuse of “I don’t know what to do” doesn’t really cut it with Jesus.

Maybe I could write about how I called my daughter from work the next day to go find a shoe box and an old towel to place the little bird in, and try to find some kind of recipe on the Internet so that we could try to feed it. Maybe I could write about when I got home that evening and how we tried, but the poor little thing would not eat, all covered in tiny, little fleas and its eyes barely open.

Maybe I could write about how I almost threw up yesterday morning after finding this picture of Baby Malachi on the Internet, after hearing an anti-abortion person speak on the radio the night before, and how this one cold-hearted, “reasonable” weblogger denies that a fetus is a person, even if he or she looks like a person.

Maybe I could write about how I then found the baby bird dead in its shoebox and how I buried it before my kids woke up.

Or, maybe I could write about why I can’t stop crying this morning for that darn bird, Baby Malachi, the beggars on the streets, and that cold-hearted weblogger.

Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy us.

Generosity

Lord, teach me to be generous.
Teach me to serve you as you deserve;
to give and not count the cost,
to fight and not to heed the wounds,
to toil and not to seek for rest,
to labor and not to ask for reward,
save that of knowing that I do your will.

— St. Ignatius of Loyola

For Beginning the Day

O Lord, grant me to greet the coming day in peace,
    help me in all things to rely upon your holy will.
In every hour of the day reveal your will to me.
Bless my dealings with all who surround me.
Teach me to treat all that comes to me throughout the day
    with peace of soul and with firm conviction
    that your will governs all.
In all my deeds and words,
    guide my thoughts and feelings.
In unforeseen events, let me not forget
    that all are sent by you.
Teach me to act firmly and wisely,
    without embittering and embarrassing others.
Give me strength to bear the fatigue of the coming day
    with all that it shall bring.
Direct my will, teach me to pray.
And you, yourself, pray in me.
Amen.

— St. Philaret of Moscow (via Beliefnet)